Thursday, March 26, 2015

Virtual Coffee Date

So I have seen this around in other blog posts and I thought it would be a cute way to catch up.

If we were going on a virtual coffee date, we would most likely meet at Starbucks because they are the close by, even though I would much rather go to Dunkin Donuts. I would order a Grande Blonde Roast with room for Skim Milk, 3 Splenda and 2 pumps of Sugar Free Vanilla. I would suggest we split a pastry because come on, its a coffee date and why the heck not, calories or points don't count when you are catching up.

I would tell you how great it is for us to get together in our busy lives and just sit down. I feel that most of the time life passes us by and we forget that even an hour of our day to do something like this can make a world of a difference.

I would tell you that I had a great trip back home in New York and how much it made me happy that I was able to spend so much time with my Poppy. He is getting older and I just want to be able to look back on these memories, not ones I regret I never took.

I would tell you that I am currently obsessed with the new show, Secrets and Lies, it is getting so good, even if the acting is a little off. I really want to know who killed Tom.

I would tell you that work is going really well. I would say that my store is feeling a 100% and everything is falling into place with it and not so stressed, which is probably the first time a long time.

I would tell you that my ankle is okay. And that is just that, it is okay. Some days it hurts so bad and other days, it is great, like Monday and Tuesday and today, it is sore and just uncomfortable. I would also tell you that I am going for PT today for the first time after our date, so a follow up conversation would be hard.

I would tell you that I have been feeling tired a lot lately. Coffee is definitely helping but just fatigued and not a whole lot of energy. I am taking vitamins and B12 but I think I need a little bit more. Here is where you would say, I should see a Doctor and I would say it is on the agenda!!

I would tell you that I have to grocery shopping this weekend, which makes me very happy because there is nothing that excites me more than a fully stocked fridge.

I would tell you that I am loving all the spring colors coming out and a trip to Target should be our next date because holy heck do they have some cute clothes  and shoes this year. Plus, hello anytime is a good time for a Target trip.

I would tell you I have a pile of magazines sitting on my table that I have not even looked at yet. I keep meaning to just unwind with them but it never seems to happen. But I would tell you that I finished 3 books this month and I think I am finally back to the love of reading BUT I am having a hard time diving into a new book, I think I need a fun, not serious book to get me going again.

I would tell you that since I bought a scale and switched to Weight Watchers online I feel like I have my groove back with weight loss. I feel I have gotten over my hump and things are starting to get back to normal.

I would also tell you how hard it has been since the marathon and everything. That I finally have control over my hunger and not eating for fuel and knowing the difference.

I would also tell you how happy I am, how everything is going really well for me now and how I am embracing the suck of things that happened.

I would tell you that James and I are good. Sure we have our bad days, but the good days are definitely out weighing them. We are finding balance and compromise and it is going very, very well.

So as we sip our last little bit of coffee, I would tell you how grateful I am to have your as a friend, how you listen and don't ever judge and let me be me.

I would tell you how much I appreciate you and cant wait to do it again.

Then we would hug and I would say next time, lets go for Wine ;0)

Monday, March 23, 2015

Garden Lites Make Eating Veggies Delicious

I love veggies. I can honestly, truly say that. But eating raw veggies or roasted or steamed or cooked can get quite boring sometime. So I like to switch it up a bit. Plus I really try to add fruits and veggies to every meal and snack. Such as adding a side of fruit with my breakfast or having my egg white scramble mixed with veggies..

And Guacamole of course!!

But the best kind of veggies are the ones we don't taste and mixed with a little bit of chocolate.

I mean seriously anything with Chocolate makes it better.

That's where Garden Lites comes in.

Garden Lites takes veggies and whips them up into amazing creations. I have been a huge fan of them with their souffles, which I have posted about in the past. Garden Lites makes eating veggies not only delicious, but unique and fun.

They have a line of muffins geared towards kids and adults. Which to be honest, I love the kids ones just as much.

Look how cute the packaging is. These are zucchini muffins with chocolate. You can barely taste the veggie and can taste all chocolate. These are perfect for that picky eater in your life.

These were by far my favorite. It tasted just like a banana chocolate chip muffin. 

120 calories or 3pp. The points values are actually on the box.

Oh My Goodness Yum!!!!

The muffins are suppose to be kept frozen. You can thaw them out by leaving out or heat them up in the microwave. They are in plastic and the steam from the microwave makes the chocolate nice and gooey. The muffin tastes just like a regular muffin. They are moist, chocolaty and even have a hint of banana and you can barely taste the zucchini.

You can find Garden Lite varieties at local Targets, Shop Rite and Publix. Check them out for yourself and head over to their website to see their full line of muffins and souffles and other goodies!!!

Sunday, March 22, 2015

My weekend in pictures...

These are LIFE!!

Don't let anyone dull your sparkle

Happy Hour downtown and not having to close on a Friday <3

Fish spread delciousness with a margarita

Glee a Series Final :0( 

Quick oats, few walnuts, Berries and brown sugar

Best part of waking up is enjoying coffee in my Sox cup!!

Pink Slate Boutique necklace 

Love love love!!

Working on a new me, Saturday Selfies

Paired perfectly with my outfit

5:00 am wake up call for a store meeting followed by a full floor set

Ending my Sunday with a couple of these..a long day which has Flaried up my ankle and leg a bit and because I'm off tomorrow ;0)

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Ankle Update and other Randomness

Okay a little Ankle update.

The last time I ran was on Sunday before I left NY. Monday and Tuesday my ankle felt very off. It had a constant type of pain and when I get up to walk I am limping a bit and last night every time I laid on my stomach, I couldn't rest my foot down. I just don't feel like it is getting better. And I am doing everything I am suppose to, to make it better.

So today was another one of my follow ups. And I let the Doctor know how I was feeling. As much as I know it could delay a lot of my working out and such, I had to let him know where it is hurting and where I have to go next. I can not let this get worse, I just cant. So he recommended that I now on to PT. Not sure what to expect or what this will entail. I am hoping it will help and get my ankle and me back to normal very soon. Because honestly this really sucks.

After feeling a little bit off and ready to take on the next chapter of this drama, I went grocery shopping. Cause, seriously nothing makes me happier than having a house full of food I can eat and have on handy for me. Oh and after the day I had yesterday. No Luck of the Irish for me. I started my day getting pulled over for having two ear buds in.

I mean I was about to take a conference call and was going to take one out. And he got me 1 minute into the call. So pissed off, a 116.00 dollars later!!! This is absolutely the last thing I need right now. Grocery shopping though makes me so happy, haha. And I have been getting back into my couponing game again and saved almost 30.00 dollars today. Another win.

Lets be real after the last two days and having my day off today, I wanted to a little bit of nothing. I cleaned our apartment last night so I could just do this afternoon..

It felt great. I love this time of year. I could have spent more time out there but James surprised me and came home for lunch. It was such a nice surprise in the afternoon. And the sun knocked me out a bit, so a nap was in order.

Then I decided to show my ankle and my determination who is boss and went for a 1.50 mile run.

These small miles mean a lot to me. I want to be running long distance so bad and getting back to a routine, but these miles are something and right now I am very happy that I can do this. My ankle does hurt a bit but nothing like before. I can't wait to work on my speed too. That 13:56 is sad but hey progress not perfection.

I also did a 20 minute shoulder work out I saw on Skinny Meg's Instagram. It was intense and I could feel the burn for sure. And it was just what I needed.

Other than that, that is my life from vacation. Just getting back to a routine.

Hope everyone is having a good week thus far!!

Monday, March 16, 2015

I Don't Want to Be an Adult Today

This is me in a Nutshell today! I didn't get home to almost 11:30 pm last night and today I work at 1:15. Stupid me for scheduling myself to work the day after the flight. I was not thinking that I might just want to unwind and unpack and just get my head on straight. Even worse today, I slept in so late. Amazing, all week, I was up so early, and then today I just didn't wake up. It is so weird how on vacation I am up and ready to go every day when I should be sleeping in and my work week, yeah cant get out of bed hahaha.

I also weighed myself this morning and I was so surprised I only gained .4 pounds. I have to admit I was truly on point all week. Yes, I ate over my points each day just because it was so different, but I made it work. I did not eat bad at all!! I had maybe 2 bad days, but they weren't full bad days, just cheat meals, which is a huge for me, usually I will make the whole day bad, not the meal.

Every time I have gone on vacation, I always over indulge, now I feel like I fully got it. I have some goals in mind, such as another family vacation in June, I want to be down 6 pounds by then, maybe even more!

And then my 30th Birthday!!

So today, I am trying to just take deep breathes. My first day back is always the most stressful.

Hope everyone has a fun Monday!!

P.S. It feels so good to be back in the heat.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Heading Back to Reality

Alright I will be heading back to Florida in just a couple of hours. Today is my last day here in New York. This trip has truly been one of my favorite trips back home. While, I didn't do anything crazy or be in the sun or go anywhere exotic, just being home with my family has meant the absolute world to me.

It renewed my spirit and recharged my body and soul. I got to spend the whole week with my Poppy and it was exactly what I wanted. This man is my heart and soul...

We, seriously have a bond like no other. He saved me years ago, gave me stability and never-ending love. I don't think he knows how much he truly means to me.

Yesterday was his 81st Birthday. I spent the whole day with him, made me breakfast and lunch and dinner, we had cake and strawberries and relaxed on the couch all day. It was perfect. I miss him so much when I am gone. It is so hard to be so far away but it is a decision that is right for me. I could never live back home, Florida is where I need to be. He knows that and I think that is what makes our time together even more special.

Also with this time home, I got to spend time with my Aunt and the boys..

She is another favorite person in my world. My GodMother and Aunt and I love my special little boys..

And got to see their dog, who seriously smiled for this picture..

I also saw this girl...

My Person...

Met up with a High School friend, whom I haven't seen since I was like 16..

Which was a great way to spend the afternoon! It was so good to see her!!

And then ended my trip with Breakfast with my mom

This was literally the 20th picture we took. She is the worst with selfies haha.

All in all this trip was exactly what I needed.

I even got a 3rd run in...

Which was a huge accomplishment for me!!!! Sure, it was only a mile at a time, but it felt so good to get out there again!!! I cant wait to add the mileage back up.

Starting this week, trying for 2 miles, so I can be ready to do at least a 5k next month. Fingers crossed for Iron Girl.

I didn't read as much as I wanted to while on the trip. I did finish a book and starting another. I spent too much money at the Christmas Tree Shop and other places, but it was a great, GREAT vacation.

I am ready to see James and get back to work and the warmth!

Friday, March 13, 2015

3 Years...

I often think about all the times in my life where a phone call had a huge impact on it...finding out I got a job or a promotion, my BFF is engaged, that I won an award for High School to help pay for college, that I got into College, that family and friends had a milestone in their lives, that my family was going to be growing by new additions...All of those wonderful memories and moments that were made possible with a single phone call.

Then on the 13th of March of 2012, one phone call changed my whole life, not for better, not for worse, just changed it, in a way I never saw coming.

The phone call that every person that lives away from family dreads more than anything. The phone call that separates you from them, the phone call that tells you a loved one has left this world...

I got that phone call at 8:45 on a Tuesday morning, 3 years ago today. I was running late for work and my house phone rang, which it never does. I looked at it and stared for what felt like an eternity and it was my Poppy's house. I didn't know what to do or even remember how to answer the phone, all I know is I did not want to answer it all.

Sometimes you just know what you are going to hear on the other line..

But this was not one of those times...

My father had passed away, suddenly in the night.

This was such a shock to me. I blacked out and dropped to my knees, screaming and crying.

See the thing with phone calls like this, is you don't know how to react, your body shuts down, you shut down and everything around you is spinning. The tears came so quickly I didn't even have a chance to catch my breath. But the thing with this phone call was I never got the chance to say goodbye.

I believe in the world goodbye. It is a word that can mean so many meanings, like getting a phone call. Goodbye can be taken so many ways. Good Goodbyes, Bad ones, ones that need to be done or Goodbyes that just mean I will see you later.

I just was never give that chance with my dad. I hadn't heard from in a weeks, on his own doing, he shut me out, which I later found out, was because he knew he was eventually going to die. See the thing with that is I never got to say goodbye and when someone leaves this world, you want to believe they knew they were loved, cherished and cared for. You want them to know that goodbye, they understand what is happening but you love them so much, you can imagine another day without them.

In one day, in one phone call, I was given the news that my Father had died and that I Never had the chance to say goodbye.

I miss my Father so much, each year on this day, I make sure to be home with my family. We don't bring it up, but each of us know what today is. We occupy our minds or tell our favorite stories about my Dad. What I would give to just have one more dinner with him. There are times, I miss him so much, my whole body hurts. There are times that I don't think about him for awhile. I know he is there, but he doesn't cross my mind.

Then I look in the mirror and I see him staring right back at me. I am 100% my Father's daughter. I have a sparkle in my eyes and I know I get that from him. I get my skills of figuring out a tip at restaurant quickly from him, my love of Diet Coke and Slim Jims, love for classic rock music, my compassion and sympathy for others, my emotions and how I feel everything when people go through a rough time. My short temper when I get stressed or overwhelmed. And my ability to light up a room.

Every part of me that is happy, good and alive I got from my Father. I got his facial expressions and his hair. But more importantly I got his Love. I got so much Love from my Father. I know he loved me so much, that it killed me. I know he loved me so much, he didn't want me to see or hear how bad he had gotten with his drinking. I know he loved me so much, that it was easier for him to just go, it would be easier for him. He loved me so much, he didn't want to put me through any more pain or disappoint me anymore, he knew he had messed up, he didn't want to hear it in my own voice.

Yes, a part of me thinks it is selfish of him to just leave this world without letting me say goodbye. But I loved and LOVE him so much, to understand and allow him to do so. As much as my pain hurts, I know it was better this way.

On this day each year, the anniversary of my father's death. I reminded how much I really miss him. But I am also reminded of how much I love him because I think if you feel pain for someone, that means you love them twice of much....

So a quick letter to my father about the year he missed, the 3rd year.

Dear Dad..

I, first want to say how much I love you. I hope you know that and see that. Yes, see that, I know you are shining down on me every day. You know you aren't that great at sending subtle clues. When I pull into a gas station, I know that's you whispering me to go inside and buy a Diet Coke. I know when I am running, and I hit that wall, or get that feeling I can't go on, the breeze that blows or the water that tastes so sweet, I know that is you carrying me. I know when I look up and see the sun shining, I know you are happy. Or when it is cold and rainy, I know you are just having a bad day and wanting to be here on Earth with me. You didn't miss a whole lot this year. My biggest thing was I ran, and finished a Marathon. I say you missed it, I know you were there carrying me the whole time, I just wished, god how I wished to see you over on the side, smiling that bright smile. You missed the little things too, you missed me growing out of my 20's and transitioning into being a 30 year old. Yup, your baby girl is going to be 30 in 5 months. You missed my laugh, you missed my tears, you missed my very good days, where I would call you and just tell you how much I love you or tell you about my day. You also missed me calling you when I was hurt. You know when I hurt my ankle, I know that hurt you too, I just wished I had a phone to heaven, to just hear you tell me it was going to be alright. Alright Dad, you left this world 3 years ago today, but know you left your legacy here with me. I know you didn't think you did good things in this world, but the best thing you did was having and being apart of my world. You did amazing with me. I am the very, best thing you ever did! And if you are talking to the big man, can you ask him to throw down a phone or find a way for me to talk to you, I just want to hear your voice one more time...

I love you always and forever

Your Little Girl,