Thursday, February 26, 2015

Not Too Much Going On

Oh my goodness I have been so bad lately with not posting every day. I used to do that all time but since my life has taken a little bit of a hiatus with the no running thing, everything else in my life has done the same too.

This week has been a little bit of a whirlwind. I can not wait to go on vacation back home to New York on March 8 for a week. It will be nice to get a way a bit and have no worries or cleaning, laundry, getting errands done, and work. For now just going through the motions.

Monday I had to drive to another store in Sarasota for the day. Which I don't mind but my car broke down on the way there. I calmly fixed it, by pulling over on the highway, putting the coolant in the car and making it there safely. Not sure how I did it, but I did. My ankle was bothering me already that day and the brace was too. I took it off mid in my shift and then the ride home it was so painful.

When I got home, it had blown up. It looked the size of an apple. I iced it, elevated and went to sleep. I am not sure if it was because of being on my feet or the drive, but it scared me and I felt like I was making no progress.

Tuesday, I felt a little bit more pain but then it lightened up a bit. Yesterday and today I have had very minimal pain at all. At work I was able to do my whole shift and not sit down once, a huge improvement. It was such a nice change of pace.

Today I have been off of work and being a total bum. I have done laundry and just laid around, I woke up with a wicked headache that just wont go away. And I don't know what I did to my left thumb but it has been swollen and hurting like no other.

I swear when one thing is better, another pops up.

So see my life is nothing sparkley at all this week. Plus Aunt Flo came to town and has thrown me so off again. Hoping tomorrow I wake up feeling better and refreshed.

Here is too a better week ahead!!

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Productive Sunday and Revamping My Style

Happy Sunday!!!

So as planned today has been a successful, yet lazy day. I was able to get our grocery shopping and apartment cleaned, BUT laundry...blahhhh. Still sitting there. I have been so over it lately, just no ambition to get it done at all haha. There is always tomorrow.

I didn't get on the treadmill today, only because my ankle still is feeling a little sore. The top of my foot was hurting and the outside of it. I did however did my upper body cardio work out and the strength exercises the Doctor recommended doing. I do a ton of walking and moving at work, so I know that is helping a lot too. I need to listen to my body, despite how much I want to just get out there.

Baby Steps.

Also, I just realized, it is TWO weeks until I go on vacation back home to New York!! I am going home for a whole week to just spend time with my Poppy and see my Mom. My Dad's 3 year anniversary is March 13, so since he died and the years after, I have made a pact to go home and just be with my family. Plus my Poppy's birthday is the day after and I want to spend as many B-Day's as I can with him. It is hard, knowing the anniversary is the day before BUT it gets me home to be with my Poppy and deep down inside I know it is what my Dad would have wanted me to do.

While home, I have no real plans, which I never really do anyway. I plan on relaxing, reading a whole lot, since I have no real life responsibilities when I am home in NY. Eat some home cooked meals and do some running. Yes, I said running. It would be a month since the accident and the doctor said he will clear me before hand to do it just lightly. So what a better time then when I am on vacation!! It will suck a whole lot considering it is freezing back home, BUT I will be just happy to have my running shoes back on!

So with it being almost the end of February, I cant even believe that, one of my goals this year was to dress better for work and just in life, branch out and really take care of me. I am a work in progress and some days I love every part of me and some days, well you know. So I wanted to post some pictures of my outfits and what I have been looking like. I am not a fashion icon and I have no real fashion sense, I do love Skinny Meg's look, A LOT. So I guess I follow after her.

I got this shirt online through Amazon. I had seen it on Pinterest and Well I am a proud supporter. I got a medium, which it is clearly VERY big, but it is perfect for just lounging around or tucked in.

I love cardigans. I love wrapping myself in big ones . I got this cardi from Forever 21, the one in my mall is closing, so I did want to pass it up. Excuse the dirty mirror.

I was just having a really good hair day. Also taking time to do my hair is a thing on my list too. I tend to just do it quickly. I want to show how good I feel on the inside, the outside now.

I love CHEVRON!!! I think i might have posted this picture before, but I love this whole look. I can't wait to wear flats again.

Another Pinterest Find I found online, through FashForwardBoutique. They have the cutest clothes and FREE SHIPPING!! And they are always running sales.

My chevron items I ordered off of Etsy FINALLY came in. All about that Chevron

This picture doesn't do this shirt Justice. It is metallic and it really pops in person. I got it at Old Navy on clearance.

I want to wear this blazer every day!!! I saw it at Old Navy and just had to have it. I love that I can pair any color with it and it will still work. It is cotton and fit great. I used to have issues with blazers, my arms being too big or not fitting across my stomach, now I am branching out and loving them.  I really want a HOT PINK one.

It was a cute extra touch

I just thought these were fun shirts. Plus they were all on sale at Target for 1.29 a piece. I am a fun, outgoing girl and these spoke to me.

It's hard with work because we can wear only black, white and grey. I really wish we could just be business casual all the wear around, but I am learning to work with it and branch out of my style a bit.

Thanks for looking at all the selfies!!

Have a great night, I am excited for the Oscars!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2015

Saturday Weigh In, Eating Habits & Ankle Update

Good Saturday Morning!!!

Okay, so I have been absent on here for a couple of days, due to getting caught up with my days off, nursing my ankle and a bunch of other crazy talk BUT I am here today with a weigh in update.

So, I changed from going to meetings to Online with Weight Watchers because it is cheaper as I had stated before. I got the scale and I weigh myself every other day. And like I stated I weigh myself now on Saturdays, which I am kind of liking.

So this morning after my morning pee. Come on, I know you do it too. Every little bit helps!

So stinking happy with that result. Last Saturday, I weighed 171.6, now 168.2. I am really starting to feel great too. I don't feel as bloated and finally seeing some head way. I have 3 more weeks to get to the Diet Bet goal too. I really want to be in the 150's by June when I go on vacation to see my family at the lake house. I would be happy with 159. The last end of marathon training is really where this weight came on, for sure.

Now that I am not running, I really have to be careful with what I eat and this week, I really have been that way. I have been eating pretty damn well if I do say so myself.

Here is a look into some of my meals this week, some are breakfast, lunch and snack...

Sara Lee 45 calorie bread, 2 Hard Boiled and Peeled Eggs with 2 mandarin oranges- Breakfast

Snack- Goldfish Puffs, 1 Mandarin Oranges, 1 Hard Boiled and Peeled Egg and 1 Light String Cheese Stick.

English Muffin Banana Bread, Vanilla Cupcake Whips Greek Yogurt, 1 Hard Boiled and Peeled Egg, 2 Mandarin Orange

Do yourself a favor and top the yogurt on your English Muffin! Game Changer!!

Mini Cucumber sandwiches, Spicy Red Pepper Hummus with Shaved Turkey Breast- Amazing By the Way

I am a creature of habit. I love when I like something and I tend to stick with it for awhile! Haha. It is amazing how much your mind changes and your habits change when you decide to make a big change. I never would have eaten like this before, but now I crave it and it is pretty darn amazing.

I have also been drinking water a ton lately too and tracking it, trying to hit that 120 ounces per day.

Oh, also I actually went and did some walking yesterday too. The doctor said I can do some light walking on the treadmill for about 15 minutes. I am very happy about this. I plan to do it every other day. Yesterday though I went to the Health and Fitness Expo for the Gasparilla Distance Classic. I was suppose to run the 8k on Sunday but because of the accident and the doctor saying I can not run for another 2 weeks, I will not be attending, But I still wanted to go to the Expo because it is so much fun.

I did A LOT of walking yesterday at the Expo and before the Expo. There were stairs also. While I felt pretty good being up and moving, my ankle was a bit sore, especially this morning. I bought an ankle brace for work and to do some working.

Tomorrow I am off and plan on doing just the treadmill and the relaxing all day with some laundry thrown in.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Back to Work and Weight Watchers Update

My day off!!!

I know I was off for days because of my ankle, but being back to work was a bit tough. My ankle held up nicely, I sat when I needed too but I noticed, on the moments I wanted to get around my store quickly, my ankle would really act up. I would get a sharp pain that would throw me back to reality, telling me, I am not ready yet to move fast. I have to really take things, literally one step at a time, which also means it is true my running still wont be happening.

Also with me being back to work, my upper body cardio work out took a back seat a bit too. But back at it today and doing the best I can. I think I am going to incorporate some weights and maybe the bike to see if since my ankle will be set, it wont be that big of a deal, we shall see. I really want to make sure I am following all directions from the doctor and getting this healing process perfect. I want to run again and not have issues.

Boy do I miss it.

My life has been quite boring lately, which is nice. It has been really nice to get back into a routine again and driving. We have a new Trader Joe's in our area, so last night I went and checked it. I, of course, picked up some pretty awesome goodies.

Our weather here in Florida has been brutally cold. I know a lot of my friends and family have been in negative weather and our 50 degrees or lower is nothing, BUT for here that is freezing. I am ready for some heat and the pool and getting outside and really sweating it on.

I also, decided to switch some stuff up with Weight Watchers. I really do love the program and when I follow it well, I really do find a great result. I have a good 10-15 pounds I want to lose with Weight Watchers and then I think I will be switching it up. But for right now, I have decided to switch from meetings to doing it online. The main reason, it is 20 dollars cheaper. I follow a lot of motivation and inspiring people through online and have a great support system with friends and family, that meetings aren't the main source for me anymore. Plus if you have followed WW for quite sometime, you know that they cycle those meeting topics often.

So I bought a scale and also signed up for a DietBet through a girl I follow on Instagram. The idea is you sign up for 25.00 and you have to loose 4% of your starting weight in 28 days, which for me, is 1.7 pounds per week. I am extremely dedicated to this because I want to win some money back. Plus having the scale in my house, while I at first was scared of the idea, it really has become a great tool. I weight myself every other day, which I know is bad, but for me, it is a nice motivation, plus I am learning about my body for a bit.

I also changed my weigh in day from Tuesdays, to Saturday mornings. I find Saturday is a great weigh in day for me because usually on Saturday nights, we eat out or go out and do something, so that can be my cheat day. I have switched up my points too, by increasing and decreasing the every day. It really has helped, I am not hungry or mad at myself anymore when I go over points, I feel really good about it.

So while the number is very scary, I weighed myself last Saturday at 171.6. I know that had a lot to do with the medication I was on for my ankle also. The one had a HIGH sodium count, so I will weigh myself every Saturday and report. Back to this to hold me accountable.

Now, off to see 50 Shades of Grey!!!

Saturday, February 14, 2015


Happy Valentine's Day to my Loves!!!!!

In most years, I am all about this day. I want to go out for dinner, flowers, wine and dine the whole thing. I usually go crazy with gifts and everything. This year though with everything with my injury, I just wasn't having it. I wanted nothing but be home, in my PJ's with some wine, pizza and my love.

And that is what we are doing. My last indulgence for awhile. Just wine, pizza from CD Roma's and some chocolate covered strawberries, that James surprised with yesterday before I left for work...

Which by the way are amazing!!! They are really delicious. 5pp for each one, but a nice splurge. And holy yum!!!

I did get James a Groupon for a brewery tour in Sarasota for a local beer he drinks. He was very surprised with it and loved the idea it was something we can do together.

My mom also surprised us with some chocolate covered fruit deliciousness..

Even at 29 my mom still gets me a gift <3

So with all the love given to me, I decided to get some goodies for my awesome staff, which came together these past 11 days and build it together for me while I was out...

Best part was they were super surprised about getting them. Which of course made me feel even more loved.

I did get festive with my heart shirt though..

And I got fancy with my hair, finally, and did a little side braid. I loved how it came out!!!

Now I am content with my love, indulging and tomorrow back to normal and back in the swing of things :0)

Hope everyone had a lovely day, single, married or with someone, know I love Each and Everyone of You for reading and being apart of my journey and life!!!

love is...


aw James and I def had that<3

Friday, February 13, 2015

All Cleared

Great News....

I can go back to work!! I am actually going back today!!!

It was up to me when I wanted to go back and due to boredom and not wanting to miss out on anymore of work, I have decided to just go with it today.

The doctor yesterday gave me the news of lighting up my restrictions and he gave me an air cast to use. It really helped and I can walk on my ankle without it but for the hours of work and such, this might really help.

It was a great day once I got the news yesterday. I am excited to jump right back in but also nervous. I have been out for 11 days and I have control in my store and to go back with out me being there is sometimes really scary, I do not know what I am getting myself into. I am trying really hard to take a deep breath and just pray it all looks good.

But I cant stress about it.

The doctor also told me I have a few more weeks until I can get back with the exercise of my lower body. Which means I wont be able to run the Gasparilla 8k on the 23rd. It really upsets me but I know it is for the best. My ankle is definitely not strong enough then, but I do say that is the day, I might try just a little walking. He gave me exercises to do with it and I am going to treat this next phase of healing very serious.

But I have to say I am super excited about just getting back to work.

Hope everyone has a nice Friday the 13th, Make it LUCKY!!!

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Upper Body Cardio and Cooking

Happy Hump Day!!!!!

Things over here in one ankle land are doing quite fine. Actually today is the first day I haven't hurt all that much. I can actually walk around without the boot and there is no pain. Please fingers crossed tomorrow when I go to the Doctors, he says I am good to go and I just need an air cast of some sort.

I have been using this Upper Body Cardio Work out from YouTube this week too...

It is wonderful!!! My arms feel like jell-o and my shoulders are on fire. I can do it sitting down and it feels amazing. I am asking the Doctor tomorrow a million questions on my running and walking too. I am guessing I am going to go back to the Galloway method to get my stride back and start from the beginning.

I think I have re-evaluate some goals this year too. Such as 1000 miles in 2015. I am sure I can make these miles up I have missed but not much, but we shall see. Also Gasparilla is hanging over my head too. I really want to do the 8k, I mean I REALLY want too, but I am still up in the air. I am going to ask the doctor and see his advice and with how my ankle is healing.

These last couple of days I have been getting a ton of rest. Sleeping in late, no alarm, taking naps and staying up late. I miss my routine, and I have been consumed with 30 Rock on Netflix! Another show I never watched while it was on air and really should have. This show is hysterical. I am saddened to say yesterday, I watched a whole season in one day. It felt really good to just be relaxed, maybe this was what my body needed all along, but today, today I need to read some of a book and get out for a bit.

Since I have been broken, James and I have been eating in every night during the week. And because I am on my compute most of the day, I have been able to look up some great recipes. I highly recommend Emily Bites. She is amazing!!! She makes feel food, comfort food, casseroles, unique takes on old items and makes them into low points for Weight Watchers.

Her tag line comfort food made simple. I have been dying to try a lot of her stuff but make excuses that it is too much work, etc. But this week since I have been able to get up and move, I put her stuff to the test.

First I made her Bubble Up Enchilada Casserole...

It was soo good and James was very impressed. He couldn't stop eating it. And he kept saying I need to twist my ankle more often to get meals like this lol.

Then we tried her Deep Dish Sloppy Joe Casserole...

This was really great too but I didn't use the right pizza crust so it wasn't as deep as it should have been but seriously really delicious.

Make sure to check out her website, she has a lot of great ideas. I am making another one tonight too. Which is right in line with another one of my goals this year was to expand and try new stuff and cook more rather than the same old stuff.

Hope everyone is having a good week!

Monday, February 9, 2015

FlapJACKed Protein Pancakes

I cant believe that is has been a week since my accident. 7 full days. Despite how cranky I was, this week really has flown on by. And I can say my ankle seems to be healing up quite nicely. I am not sure if it really is on the medical side of it all if it really is, but mentally and the fact I walk a little bit on it, seems like a good plus for me. I still am having some pain, but not a tremendous amount.

Today, it is a super rainy day here in Florida, which for once is kind of nice. One, because I don't feel so bad just laying around and resting when it isn't a beautiful day out. It actually feels really nice and cozy in our apartment, so nice I think I might take a nap soon lol. I am though seriously ready to get back to work. I want to dress up again, shower every day, etc. Yes, I have not showered every day because what the heck is the point. I have stayed in numerous types of P.J.s this week and I am kind of okay with that.

Since I have been subjected to doing a lot of stuff online, which Pinterest, Influenster, CrowdTap and others have been a huge part of keeping me busy, so has Amazon and shopping.

I received two 5.00 gift cards through Crowdtap last month. Crowdtap is an awesome website where you do challenges, answer survey questions and do tasks for various brands and you enter into prizes each month, like gift cards to Target, Walmart, and Amazon. It is pretty neat and sometimes you get to sample products.

With the two gift cards I receieved I ordered FlapJack Protein Pancake Mixes. They are hard to find at stores, so shopping online for them is much easier. I have tried a flavor of theirs before in one of my subscription boxes and really enjoyed them. So I found them on Amazon and got a great deal. 10.50 for the 3 bags, which I also signed up for Amazon Prime for a free 30 day trial.

Once I got them in, I knew EXACTLY what I would having for breakfast each morning. First was the Apple Cinnamon.

The instructions are quite easy 1 cup of water with 1 cup of mix. Those instructions are for if you are serving two people. I did just 1/2 cup of mix and 1/2 cup of water, which gave me 3 pancakes.

I cut up a small apple and sprinkled it with cinnamon and put it in the microwave for about a minute and then layered it in between the pancake and drizzled them with sugar free syrup!!! Holy Yum!!! The pancakes taste great and have 15 grams of protein, making me feel fuller longer. I love that!!!

Since I became quite obsessed with these, I made the banana Hazelnut the next day.

These ones I added Blueberries to them and sugar free syrup. This flavor came to 5pp and 4pp for the apple cinnamon.

I am obsessed with making pancakes now. What I like about these is you can make a lot of them and freeze them and the defrost them when I want them. Plus I mean the possibilities are endless with toppings!!!

If you want a filling breakfast and looking to add more protein, find them and I promise you will love them!!

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Reading, Looking at the Pain and Finding Work Outs

Good Sunday Morning.

I have to say waking up this morning I wanted nothing more than to get a run in. The weather has been of course absolutely gorgeous this week and today is no exception. It puts such a pain in my heart knowing I cant. Even just to go for a walk. But no, I can't even put a shoe on still. I am in this walking boot and my foot is still in pain. I woke up this morning with some pain too, my foot felt heavy.

Here is the process of how it is right now...

My feet look horrible!!! I need a pedicure like a month ago haha. But the bruising is so bad, it looks worse in person, but I know that is part of the process and means it is healing right along. My toes are purple which James warned me about. I did something special for sure to this ankle and foot.

I am very happy the swelling has gone down a lot!!! But I know I have a long way to go. Last night we went out to dinner. I just had to get out of the house. I was going a little stir crazy. So James took me out to dinner, we went to Outback because we haven't been there in forever and I did actually want steak.

I got a 6oz sirloin with a sweet potato and grilled aspargus. It was heavenly, totally forgot to take a picture. It came with soup and I had a really great sangria, well 2 of them lol. We didn't get apps and we split a heavenly dessert. It felt so nice to just eat out and actually dress in something other than sweats.

I just wanted to feel normal again for one day. I put on my pair of jeans, while there was a little bit of muffin top, they went on and fit quite nicely. Which to sadly admit a couple of months ago, not so much. So progress not perfection :0)

In my quest to Embrace The Suck, I went on to Pinterest last night and looked up all kinds of exercises I can do when you have an ankle sprain. Lots in which you can sit down and do, which helps a TON!!! Yesterday for about 15 minutes I sat in a chair and did some arm reps with a light pound medicine ball.

Not much, but I am doing something and it made me feel really great. Eating is still going okay, there are moments when I am home here, but I am tracking, even though I have ate all my weeklies. I can't weigh at Weight Watchers, so I am going to buy a scale now. I have been against for sometime but I do need something to hold me accountable more, push me a little bit more. I think I might even change to online, since going to meetings, will be a little tough from now on.

Okay, what else good stuff has gone on in my boring life lol. I did end up starting and finishing TWO books this week!!! Two books I highly recommend

Amazing book!!! If you have struggled with weight loss or even if you haven't please read this book. It was her journey through her weight gain, issues in life with family and love, how she lost weight, gained and became who she was. I mean chapters and chapters and her writing, I felt like seriously she was writing a book about me, it could have been my own writing. We had A LOT in common, especially in childhood. I saw this book a lot on Instagram with a lot of people commenting about it, so I downloaded it to my Nook and I was hooked. It truly is a great book. She is a blogger and I have never heard of her, but now I am glad I came across this.

My second book came from my own bookshelf. Back when Borders closed, they ran crazy sales on their books and I stocked up in the hopes of reading them all. Well that was almost 4 years ago and I have not, so I am slowly tackling them one at a time. I like to read a Nook book and then a real book, one where I can turn the pages physically.

I picked this one up because I love Mitch Albom. I loved Tuesdays With Morrie, which I read in High School and I loved The Five People You Meet in Heaven, which also became a movie. This book was such a quick and easy read, I read it in 5 hours on Friday, I just couldn't put it down, it was amazing!! I cant tell you the last time I read a whole book in a day. It felt great to get lost in a book for a long time. I highly recommend this book.

So despite the injury, I am happy with how I am embracing the suck. I am hoping to read and finish one more book or at least two!

And while it wont be Sunday Runday, I can still have Sunday Funday!

Have a great one everyone!

Friday, February 6, 2015

Embracing The Suck

Hey Everyone!!!

So while nothing really has changed in my ankle department, my attitude has a bit.

This morning I woke up a little bit cranky, but realized I had a great nights sleep. Still sleeping on the couch, tonight I am going back to the bed, but I didn't wake up once and my foot only hurt, just a little bit. So that is a big success, plus my mind wasn't racing or thinking of a million and one things.

This probably had a lot to do with it. Red wine and Chocolate always make things much better.

As I was making breakfast this morning, my boss, whom is also a very good friend of mine called me this morning and read me one of her famous quotes. She gave me some positive light and motivation. On Friday's we have our conference call and the 10 minutes before the end, she always does a leadership portion, where is focuses on some great motivation and leadership topics to cover for us managers. It is my favorite call and favorite part of the call and today I missed it.

But because she is such a great friend, motivator and mentor, she knew I needed to hear some Jen greatness and she called to tell me it was going to be all okay. She gave me some positive light at the end of the tunnel. Told me everyone missed me and she gave me the light and positive I so needed. Sometimes, that is really all you need.

With that in my mind and kicking off my Friday, I have decided to dig myself out of this pity party hole for one I have dug and keep it moving. I am someone finds the light, makes the light, embraces it and keeps going. I find the SPARKLE!!!

So while the sparkle isn't as bright these days, I have given up the fact it is going to suck and I am going to EMBRACE THE SUCK!!

Yes, I am confined to my home. I cant work out or RUN, I can't work, but I will make this work. So after my breakfast I put on some semi regular clothes. Granted they are still sweats and a tee-shirt but not over sized baggy sweats and a hoodie.

I was just walking by the mirror this week, almost afraid of what I would see. I was scared I was going to just wake up and see 70 pounds put right back on. You know what, I saw the same girl. Someone who has a little set back but the same girl and for being hurt looking pretty darn good. My clothes fit the same, I look great and I don't feel as bloated because of all of the water.

So changing my clothes and my attitude makes a difference. I have also decided that since I cant get to the gym or anything like that, I can still work out my arms. I have a medicine ball that I can lift and do some sets while sitting down. I plan to do that this week, hey it is something until I can really get to sweating.

I am embracing the suck by attacking my book shelf that has tons of books on there I have bought but never read. I am embracing the suck by making a collage of James and I to hang over our bed. I am embracing the suck by enjoying naps and not feeling guilty about it, honestly I have never felt guilty about a nap, but hey now I have an excuse.

I am embracing the suck trying out new recipes for dinner and breakfast because I will be home. I am embracing the suck by saving money because I cant drive and buy just because, even though that isn't so true, I have hit up Amazon Prime and a clothing retailer for cute items lol.

I am embracing the suck because I don't have to make a to- do list for things to get done because I have all the time in the world to do them, even though I am doing one now for things I can do this week while home. I am embracing the suck because I don't have to set an alarm all week and I can stay up all hours and not worry about being tired or make excuses the next day.

I am embracing the suck with laundry, because I practically wear the same things each day so laundry will be light.

All in all, I am trying to find the goodness out of all of this. It is Friday and I have until Thursday to see what else will bring out of all of this. Before I know it will be here. My foot and ankle will be stronger. It still looks pretty horrible, the black and blue stages have settled in and the swelling isn't as bad, so that is a plus.

Plus I will have more time to post more about my life and get back to blogging just because. I hope everyone has had a good week and remember Embrace the Suck!!

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Not What I Wanted To Hear But I Can Deal

Today I went to the walk in clinic to get my ankle and foot checked out at. As you know, last night I had a really rough night of sleeping. I couldn't fall asleep or stay asleep. I was hot, achy and just 100% agitated. I just wanted to fall asleep or it just be morning and I could get a move on.

We got to the clinic right when they opened and they were already busy. We ended up waiting over an hour just to be seen.

This guy right here has been a real trooper. His day off and we are up early to go to my appointment and see what is going on. He was cranky like me this morning, it was rainy and I know he didn't want to be there. He is over it just as much as me, but he is sticking it out with me, for which I am grateful.

We finally took off my splint and I did not know what to expect underneath all the padding. I wasn't sure how my foot was going to look, I knew it wasn't going to be pretty because it still hurt a whole bunch.

As you can it is still very swollen. The doctor even said it just doesn't look right still. And even when I try to stand on it or bend it in anyway it is very sore.

I expressed how much I hated the crutches and how the meds were making me angry and I was just not myself. I hated just being confined to the crutches and not doing anything. He explained it is just the process, when you are an on the go person like myself, this will have a huge impact on you. But you have to rest to get better or it wont heal properly.

He did give me a walking boot to wear now..

I am so happy to have the boot because at least I can walk around for a bit. Not a whole lot because it still hurts but I mean I was able to go to the store afterwords which was a plus.

We went to Ihop for breakfast because again it took forever after the doctors and I was starving..

Egg whites, turkey bacon, avocado and pancakes. Simple under 600 menu and it was delicious!! And just what I needed after the blow the doctor gave me.

With my ankle came restrictions. I can't lift anything 2 pounds or heavier, I cant squat, climb stairs or ladders, I cant drive, I can't stand for more than 15 minutes per hour. And that one was the icing on the cake, which would mean I wouldn't be able to go to work.

I know it sounds crazy but I want to be at work. Valentine's Day is coming up, it is a busy time for us. I want to be there and helping and having a successful holiday but with payroll and because we tend to work single coverage, I knew it wasn't going to work with the company and they would keep me out until I did my follow up and he lightened up my restrictions a bit.

Which that is what work did.

He also said I can try light walking in about 2 weeks and running 6-8 weeks. That blow killed me. I have Gasparilla the end of this month and I really want to go. I need to participate in some shape or form. I am hoping if I give my all to this healing now, that I can maybe, just maybe walk it at least. I have been really upset all day. It hit me hard.

I am back to the apartment and just laying around. I cant drive anywhere and with James working, he can't take me anywhere. We went shopping a bit at the grocery store today, so I could get some fruit and it felt amazing to just be out. To just be in the air and around other people, but he didn't want to be out long because it was his day off, so it was cut short. I felt so upset inside and I know it is childish, but this is so new to me.

I go and go all day long, I get high off endorphin's and now I have none of them to push me through and I know it is hurting my mood. But I am trying, really trying to see the glass half full, but right now I want to just curl up in a ball and just have a good cry.

But a good glass of wine will do.

This did come in the mail today and it made my life so much better..

Nanci sent me the sweetest get well, thinking of me card and it was just what I needed with a little Starbucks gift card. I couldn't have been happier to see this and receive it. Her message inside brightened up my day and during this week, while I am bored and feeling down, I will look to her message to get me through.

I am so blessed to have a friend in Nanci.

So that is where I am at right now. The good thing, it could be worse, its not broken, I just have to mend it back.

Can't sleep and my likes and loves lately

It is 1:45 am and I can not sleep. I want sleeping and then my splint and foot felt really tight, I was hot and uncomfortable so I am now up. My stomach was rumbling like crazy too, so after my yogurt with protein cereal crumbled on top I'm now watching SVU and writing to you fine people 😄.

Nothing new or update with my foot. The pain is not bad at all. I tried to step on my foot for a minute BUT not quite there at all yet. I have been having a headache yesterday and today but I'm thinking it is from the pills and not enough caffeine. I can't explain how weird using crutches are. I hate them!! I woke up this morning and was just very cranky. I hate not being to do things on my own and I am not liking doing nothing. I'm ready to move and back to routine. My life was really getting back to normal, in a good routine with work outs and running and now this. But I don't want to harp on that, I'm grateful I didn't really damage myself. I go to the doctors today to see when I can go back to work and what the next step for me is.

But since it is early, and I'm bored, I figured I can post some of my favorite things I'm liking, loving or tired lately..

This is only a like. It was very mild in flavor. I thought for sure it would taste much more like green tea but it has more of plain taste. Good but not great.

These came out around the holidays but I found them at Big Lots recently. These I am loving. So flavorful, no need to top them with anything. 6 crackers are 3 pp and they have a great recipe on the back to crumble them on a sweet potato! Def going to try that!

Mixing alcohol with sparkling water to give it more volume and taste and to last longer!! This made my margarita a little more sparkly!

Loving Starbucks Flat White!!! Really tasty! I got mine made with non fat and 2 splenda. Really tasty!!! Wishing I had one now!

These smell great!! They also sell Thin Mint and Trefoils! My YC was out of the car jars at the time too but I will be getting those also! The smell isn't overpowering or too strong! The caramel one smells great burning!

And this picture!!!! Ahhhh! I was obsessed with Saved By The Bell growing up and this made my night! They did a whole skit on Jimmy Fallon that was hysterical!!

Thanks for being awake with me!!