Thursday, December 31, 2015

2015: My Growth & Never Giving Up

Alright here we go, my end of the year post. And what a whirlwind of events and emotions was this one for sure. I just read back to what my year in 2014 was until now and the goals I set out are so different than what actually happened in 2015.

So lets recap a bit shall we because the way that 2015 started out and was headed was a great path. I had set up a running plan and even ran a virtual half marathon with Nanci and Corina. Running was definitely going to be one of my biggest focuses this year at the beginning. I wanted to run a 1000 miles and have a sub 30 minute 5k and planned on running the Gasprilla Distance Classic.

OH January held such high hopes and then my world came a bit crashing down in Feb. And it literally did as I had fallen off the ladder at work and sprained, badly my right ankle. I know to some an ankle injury is not a huge deal BUT to me it was everything. It shook me right to my core. The idea of not being able to work out or run was killing me. For days I laid on the couch, just waiting for myself to gain all that weight back I had lost.

Your mind plays some really nasty tricks on you when you are taken out of your routine like that. I was out of running for quite sometime and in March when I went home to New York, I finally started running again. Very Very slowly. But just the idea of putting my running shoes back on made a world of a difference for me. Also at this time, when I was home I had a turn of events happen with my Poppy. He was very, very ill and me being home, being able to care for him and take him places and just be with him, strengthen our relationship even more than before.

It was a true blessing and one of the bet trips I had ever had home. I was exploring more in this month too with clothing and my blog and even set up a Facebook action. Believe me I did not dive into my blog this year as much as I had wanted too and will be a continue work in progress. But through my blog this year I have grown more followers and reached out a bunch of new companies and opportunities, it has been amazing. I even started a monthly post with my dear friend Nanci.

In April, I tested my ankle out a bit more and ran the Iron Girl 5k. That where was when my running finally felt great again. Physical therapy was a life saver for me and got me across that finish line. From there I knew I was going to be okay and running was just going to be bit slower than in the past.

I signed up for some virtual races this year and won a bunch of entries into 5k's. I didn't hit my sub 30 but each one I got better and better at. And right now I am feeling better in my running than ever before to be honest. I feel like I am starting over again, a chance to get it right again and now I have a true and honest love and understanding for running. The accident sucked and it scared me but I am back to a routine and training for a half marathon in Feb. Running is my lifeline and my favorite source of exercise.

This year exercise was a bit tough. I didn't explore or try as hard as I should and I know that.  I didn't stick to a routine or a plan and I lost the muscle and strength I had but I never really gave up because that is the one thing about me, I will not give up!!!

My weight was a roller coaster or everything this year. But even when the scale was up and down and up again, I found a confidence in myself I had never felt before. I truly looked in the mirror and loved how I looked and felt. I even bought myself a bikini and took a picture in it and posted it to Instagram. I fell in love with my body and the journey.

I quit WW just a couple of months ago. The program was amazing but it was not fulfilling me anymore. I was getting too lazy and comfortable on the program, I forgot the points and decided to try counting calories to help with my running and the switch turned out to be perfect. I feel great and 100% less bloated than before. While my middle section is taking its sweet time to go down, I am learning new things about calorie and fat and protein and carb intake. Plus I am never hungry anymore because I feel like I am eating the right amount I am suppose too.

I got a FitBit this year and have become obsessed with it and that too has changed my whole life and brought me closer to my girlfriends back home as we are constantly doing challenges together.

Friends and family wise has been amazing this year too. My BFF got married and I got to see her at least 4 time this year. I love her to death and we are the true testimate that miles or time does not change us. I have grown closer with my friend  Nanci and I am so grateful for our friendship. She is one of the most genuine people I have ever met. James and I also made a new couple friend and our friendship with them is something I can not ever imagine living without.

James and I's relationship truly is better than ever. I feel like we are on a really great path together. We have had our rough patches but there is no doubt in my mind that our love for each other is forever and true. We have many goals TOGETHER for 2016 and 2015 we grew a lot together and made compromises and learned from each other, which has been wonderful. Sure there are times we fight so bad but we never let it get to us, we are in this together.

Work was another big one this year. I have grown a TON in my career. My comfort zone in my job has taken a toll these last couple of months but I am finally feeling at home in my new store and we are crushing numbers from the years path. Plus I am making a name for myself in the company, which will help me in the future. This year I put myself out there and got a promotion and will continue to earn that right every day.

So 2015 had its ups and downs, I turned 30 mid year and I have found a positive outlook on life. I have watched a bunch of shows, found some amazing series and I have read more this year than any other year. I have found a positive outlook on myself and it has changed my every day life. Turning 30 was not bad at all and it was an amazing birthday and has been a great year so far.

Biggest outlook on my year was I embrace changed and despite anything and everything, I never give up!!!

Thanks for being apart of my journey in 2015, for reading along with me and following me through sadness,  happiness and fun.

2016 will be even better for my blog and life and I cant wait to fill you in tomorrow in the start of the new year.

I hope you all had a fantastic 2015 and look forward to brighter 2016. Love you all.

Sunday, December 27, 2015

Survived Holiday 2015

Hello world!!!!

I am back and I survived the holiday 2015 season! Holy hell was this one a tough one. I was at work every single day 10 plus hours. 14 hours one day and the so on and so forth. The mornings were early and the nights long. I lived literally on coffee and tuna packets. I threw in some grilled chicken sandwiches, which I have ate one from practically every fast food.

And I am not kidding on that one. It was my go to protein and not so bad for you choice of meal this week. I had one at Sonic, Wendy's, McDonalds and Chick Fil A. I am not proud of the choice but it was the only thing I could to survive lol. And hell I could have ate worse, but I didn't. I did bring some pretzels, cheese sticks and yogurt for snacks too. I was prepared. Breakfast was a bit tough because I was constantly running out the door, so thank god for Starbucks and Dunkin for having great breakfast sandwiches.

I also drank a whole lot of coffee and Spark. Work was truly nuts at times, but my staff was wonderful. They really, really pulled through for me. It was great. It was tough because we were all learning through it together. Everyone had new roles and responsibilities but we came out on top.

The one thing that took a bit of a back seat was my running. I mean working 14 hour days, literally in the store from morning to night made it pretty hard to get runs in and still have time to sleep. So I took the 10 days off of running. I know today when I go back out there to run, it will be hard but oh so worth it. I can not wait to get back to sweating and getting ready for this half marathon.

But all the hard work and hours paid off and I am so glad it is behind me finally.

Christmas was wonderful. I slept in a bit with no alarm. James woke me up to a cup of coffee ready to go, Christmas music playing and a yule log on the tv and presents. He got me a new FitBit which I LOVE and new headphones for running and lots of little things for my stocking.  I was spoiled for sure. We spent the morning going out to breakfast and then took Christmas pictures on the beach, then I took a nice long nap.

Later we met up with our friends and went and saw the new Star Wars movie, which by the way I thought was great. And I am not a fan of Star Wars. It was a perfect Christmas.

Now life can finally get back to normal. I have set up some goals and things I want to get done with this new year, which I will post on Thursday. Now I am spending today just being lazy, relaxing and unwinding. Cleaning up our place and not thinking about work.

Hope everyone had a great Holiday season!!!

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

The Good, The Bad & Crazy of My Past Week

Hey Everyone!!!

I am over here trying to just get by and all. Honestly it has not been too bad at all. I am holding it together quite nicely but the hours man are they creeping up. I don't even remember what a slow day or 8 hour day looks like anymore and well that is okay. It is only really super intense these next 9 days and then it is semi back to normal.

Half marathon training was a bit tough last week. My hours were much longer than scheduled and with having to commute and by the time I have to be to work and leave work, it made it extra tough. I did not get any cross training in at all. And I only got 2 runs in. One was 5 miles and one was 3.5 miles. I am trying to listen to my body and when it wants rest, I am giving it rest and when it wants to go I am letting it go.  I really did not want to miss a run last week but life got in the way.

On Saturday I just had to go into work earlier because we had some issues and by the time I got to my car and home, I was like the hell with it. I was DONE. My brain and body and heart were not matching. Seriously I just wanted a Subway turkey sub, friends, a bonfire and some wine.

And that is exactly what I did!!! I went over to our friends house, we sat around an awesome fire and listed to music until 2:30 in the morning!!! Way way later than I normally am up, oh and I killed a whole bottle of wine. But I had fun, LOTS of fun. The kind of fun that just awakens the soul. I needed that night.

What I did not need was the hangover I ended up having the next day. Wow, I am seriously 30 years old. But I took a shower, put on my big girl panties and went to town on some water and got a hashbrown from McDonalds.

Yup I have not had one in like 5 years!!!! But it was the best 150 calories I have had in a really long time. It tasted amazing. The grease and everything  haha. I mean sometimes to just need the really crappy food. And that settled my craving for the next 5 years.

And I also managed to work a 10 hour day that day.  So go me haha.

Sunday night I came home, made soup and went right to bed. I was beyond beat. Last night our good friends wanted a chill night, so we went to dinner and had steak and laughs. At work it is so hard for me to eat, seriously I am eating cheese sticks and yogurt most of the time. So when I got home I was tired but the food tasted so damn good. Steak and veggies and two helpings of salad from Cody's Roadhouse. I was finally feeling good again.

It is funny and true to what they say that food really is fuel. Because I felt amazing after!!! I ended up having all this energy and I finished up some shopping and got a mani and pedi. Then I came home got my presents ready to send home and finally fell asleep. Whew.

Next week I am literlly working every single day at least 10 hours. Insane. But I have decided to not put to much presssure on the half marathon training. If I have the energy I will do the runs but if not well I will survive. I still have 2 months to go and I know I an do it.

Today I am off and plan on running a longer run. I seriously just want to run it out. Put some miles under my feet and just go. To make up for the future week ahead.

Also some good from the week is the support from my friends and family, wishing me happiness and well wishes for making it through and to my staff!!

The bad is the hours and the crazy is not being able to hardly see James at all. This year for both of us is insane and he is feeling it too. I cant wait to have Christmas off together just to have a day off.

Alright my loves, here is too another week ahead!!!

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Week 3 of Half Marathon Training

It's funny, usually when I am writing my post for how my week went in Half Marathon training, I am usually half way done with the current week. I seriously can not wait for my life to just get back to some sort of normalcy, even though it has not been that way for months now.

But with the extra long shifts and then life in general on top of it, it is just exhausting but I have to admit that my runs have not been affected much, usually when I am getting my runs in, my body is feeling extra great.

I ordered from a friend of mine, some Advocare Spark to help with a little bit of energy. And I have been trying it before my runs and it defntley does work. It really brings a little pep in my step. I have also brought it to work to help with being sluggish or just keep me focused a bit more.

Week 3 brought 1 cross train day and 3 rest days and 3 run days. I do like the 3 rest days because walking on the floor at work all day is concetrate and it really is doing a number on my legs and foot. So that extra rest day even if it is a work day makes on the difference.

I did my runs on Tuesday, Friday and Saturday. Tuesday was 3 miles and it was a night run on my day off. It felt good but man I was dragging my feet because I wanted to just stay and snuggle with James all night. But I got it done. Friday was a strange one. I had closed at work on Thursday and didn't get home until almost 11:30, I was tired and passed right out. Well I woke up at 5:00 am and just could not fall back to sleep, so I tossed and turned and said the heck with it and went for my run, early.

I seriously could have been sleeping for at least 3 more hours. The run started off amazing. I was having a true runners high for the first 1.60 miles. No walking just gliding along and then stomach pains happened and it was a pardon the french, an oh shit moment. I had to find somewhere and I had to find somewhere fast. Believe me bushes were looking really good, then in sight a gas station.

After thanking the attendant for allowing my to use the restroom, I set out to finish my 4 miles. My stomach and mojo were a bit off still, but i got it done. And then spent the few hours drinking coffee in my bathrobe before work. It felt great to have it done and over worth.

Saturday I of course planned on running before work, but of course I slept in because of the day before. All good though, I got home later, chugged some spark and ran in the dark. I am not a huge fan of it but these 11-7 shifts kill me. Two more and then I am done. I will run in the morning this week though.

It was a good week despite one day off. The KT tape works wonder and my vitamins help a bunch too. I have been chugging water like crazy and I feel a difference. Plus I seriously think this is what is keeping my semi sane this time of year.

If I can marathon train in the summer then I know I can do this.

Hope everyone is having a great week!!!

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Week 2 of Half Marathon Training

Good Evening all my lovely friends and family.

I am so bad that I have been posting this so late, but geez work has been so busy and by the time I sit down the last thing I am doing is my computer, but I wanted to update how week 2 in my half marathon training went.

It went sooo well. And the main reason was because I had a nice and calm week at work. Things Remembered gave us 3 days off last week and it was glorious. It seriously was exactly what I needed. Just having one extra day goes such a long way. I kicked off the week enjoying two rest days in a row.

I spent my Sunday, just kicking back and relaxing. I literally spent the day being lazy and cozy. Monday I used as a rest day because I worked and then really wanted to go and see the new Hunger Games movie, which was fantastic. I recommend seeing a movie on a Monday night. Just push all responsibilty aside and just go with the night. I went to Panera before hand and got popcorn and had an awesome night. James stayed home and I just went by myself.

Tuesday was my second day off, so I took my run downtown in hopes of seeing all the Christmas light, which weren't up yet but I had a fantastic run. Seriously my favorite place to run always. The water looked gorgeous and it was windy and just great. My body felt awesome, I had a Spark before and it made a world of difference. It was just one of those runs I had a runners high well after. I got  my long run in that day, which was 4 miles.

Wednesday called for a cross train which I did on the bike and got my 30 minutes and then some in.

Thursday was Thanksgiving and it was the Turkey Trot!! I had a blast that morning seeing my friend Nancy and my boss Jen and her family. I even dressed up and got into the spirit. So proud of how it came out because I made it myself.





Friday, I used as my rest day because it was so busy at work and  wanted to just to come home and unwind. Black Friday isn't too crazy at my store but it is busier than what we are used too.

Saturday morning I had planned to get my 3rd run in for the week in the morning. But because on Friday we were so busy I literally had no time to drink water and felt it the next morning being dehydrated and needed water to settle my headache. So I had to AGAIN run when I got home from work. This time I was not going to go on the tredmil, so I sucked it up and hit the dark. It was not bad at all though. Running at 8 at night is tough for sure, but I got it done and celebrated with some wine and chicken.

Week 2 was great success!

I am half way through week 3 and I do like the idea of having 3 rest days, just with work it works really nicely. It makes my legs stronger.

Hope everyone is having a great week also!!